Tips to read fir thanksgiving 2011

1. St nick:
a. Brings The year ornament.
b. Takes the stockings away when he comes and they show back up on Xmas eve.

2. Stockings go up thanksgiving weekend. So they can be taken by at nick on the 6th.
3. Santa needs to get the elf on a shelf around thanksgiving weekend
4. The list of gifts need to be organized and a rubbermaid set aside for specific persons. Specific "S" only wrapping paper needs to be hidden

Resove? Redo? Redone?

So, now is the time for me to decide what I plan to resolve for next year. Resolution? Maybe, more new things, better, life choices is the direction I want to move.
1. Lose weight. Or should I say continue to lose weight. Get back on track, move forward and not look back.
2. Clean. More. More consistently. Frequently.. Etc. Etc. Etc. Organize, store, change, label etc
3. Save money. Make laundry detergent, find better ways of saving v spending
4. Sew. More, more often. Set a date nite with myself to go sew and get away from the tv.
5. To be continued...

Sayings from t

She's started that hiding while you poop phase, so I ask "are you going poop?" she say "no mom" so I say "it's ok to poop, everybody does" she says " oh, it i's? MY TURN!"

Things you can't put in your status on Facebook...

1. OMG, I have cramps!
2. Why do people need to be Bitches! No one cares to hear what you have to say (BLOCK)
3. (My Boss, His Boss, Some VP) at X company) is an ASS..
4. Why is everything that my husband does wrong, my fault?
5. Really, I set the clock wrong and that's why you were late to work? It's 10 minutes FAST!
6. If he tells me one more time that you cut the grass so you don't have to do dishes, clean the bathrooms etc, I am going to deck him!
7. Why is it, my BRA is the first thing that's TOO BIG when I diet! BS I tell ya!
8. seems to lose the same pound every other day, I wonder how loud I have to scream to scare it away for good!
9. thinks it's time for a fake sick day, call it mental health. (oh hi boss)
10. can someone remind me to pick up tampons, advil, my meds, fiber pills, and foil on my way home?

Whiningggggg............

I am now at a point in my day where I hear so much whining, and it's not even at home. I can't stand it. Family whines about other family, work whines about everything under the sun and some people that I thought were my friends whine about excuses and made up stories that I can't even stand to hear. T whines when she's tired and it's her self soothing to go to sleep (and it drives me crazy) she will walk around the living room with this mummer of a hum/whine going on "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" "eeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh" over and over again. Some days I wish the adults were doing that so I didn't have to hear everything else.
Most of my friends have had at least one night away from their kid(s) already, I have not, my husband has and he does not seem to have any appreciation for me going out, like I am dismissing my "duty" as a mother, and it is really starting to cause me pain. I feel like I need to sneak around to get some time away, and by the time I do, I am exhausted and so worn down I just want to hide or sleep. If asked to go out and leave T home for the night, I am not sure I could, knowing I would not wake up with her there. Torn... I am so so torn, and apparently whining, but feel free to skim past if you don't like it......eeeeeeehhhhhhhhheeeeeehhhhhh

All in all life is going well, my "garden" has produced about 12 blueberries, 6 raspberries that were devoured by nasty little bugs, an insane amount of almost yellow basil but it's still going and will end up in the ground by the end of the season. My cherry tomato's are not doing so well but they did bloom recently. I need to keep them going. The containers are doing really well, my peppers are not doing so well, they are sad little plants, sticks with leaves.. I don't know what to do with them, maybe I was sold grass?

I really need to buckle down and start working harder on weight loss. I don't want another year to pass, then T will be 3 and I am dieting, which I don't want. I know I need to change my food choices, which I've done and I've done really well so far, but I now need to start kicking up an actual diet for now to really get myself on track, I did the Weight Watchers and it's not bad but it's not going as fast as I would like. I will get there, it's going to take time, this is for sure someplace I've never been in my life, that is for sure! I have no idea why I started drinking soda (again) but I really don't even like it, I am going to stop drinking it again.. now.

In other news, I saw Eclipse the other night with a friend, it was good... It lost quite a bit of the emotional appeal that the book had for me. Once they get it on the screen it needed so much more than what "Bella" gave the role. My take. Jake on the other hand, omg... Taylor is too young to look that good.. but he does, look, that good!!

And the whining continues... off to have another fun filled day........

when it rains.......

It's about to rain, of course, because I actually sat down to type. HA! Isn't that the way it goes? We are going on vacation soon, so we are trying too many things at once, potty training of course is going to go on hold/ nil while in travel, it's not going to happen while we are at someone else's house I am sure, and the Dr said we need to cut off the sippy for real cups and get rid of the security blankets so the thumb sucking stops... On top of the fact that she's been sleeping on an air mattress to get ready for the trip, and sleep without a pack n play.. Which works out well, except naps.
We had 2 nap times this weekend, nope, correct that, we had 3 nap TIMES, we had 1 nap. Saturday we started out in the air bed, along with the video player, 3 Max & Ruby's it ended up with 1 naked girl, a hand held video game, 2 blankets, 3 pillows and an air mattress - PEED on! Sigh.. it was distressing but I didn't give up. She did get changed and in a full tight diaper and was put in the crib as punishment while I cleaned it up and cleaned the air mattress that daddy had to HOSE OFF and dried by fan. Fun stuff - she did fall asleep for about an hour, so that worked out a little... for laundry.
Sunday, we tried to just do the crib (yes, today) and I didn't pay attention that she was only wearing her pull up - v - diaper, easy to remove.. and did... and peed.... not once, but twice!!!!!in bed, 2nd load of pee'd on laundry? Nope, thankfully I didn't start that load, because as I set her down she then peed on the floor, and picked out "panties" and little did I know it was the first time she picked underwear and peed again in them moments later. Where does all of this pee come from??? Is she holding some back so she can mark that she's boss?? I don't get it, it was in a matter of a half hour and frustrating as hell. After the pee on the floor she picked the only pair of clean washable training pants. I don't need to tell you, do I? Laundry load started.. diapers on and away we go. Frustrated and tired... that was just me!
So, off to our vacation coming sooner than I expected, I am starting to get everything ready now, knowing I am PRE packing. Which means not much gets packed but I start an insane amount of lists. We are all taking on dinner while we are there, which is nice, easy and will make everyone less stressed. Nice.
We picked pork loin.. my favorite meal, because it's grilled and all I get is sides :) I'm not sure what to make for sides, an easy salad of course, maybe grilled veggies?? any ideas?

Day 2 - Step 2

Day two of No FB. It's not as bad as I was expecting, except I feel out of the loop. I went to a meeting last night and everyone was posting pictures and being silly and that was probably the hardest time of the day to not go see what everyone put out there. Other than that, it's not bad.
Last night was harder going to my Tupperware meeting knowing I am now the black sheep and going to another teams meeting was not as fun as I was expecting. It's been one month, I've had no party, no orders and am really down about it all. Not that I "need" new friends, not that I even "need" to sell Tupperware, it was fun for me and it's lost it's joy. That makes me sad, I have some big decisions to make and it's going in the direction of not selling anymore.
I did sign up to "sell" Wildtree, but only so I could have samples and discounts. I am thinking maybe direct sales is not for me right now. I am so torn.

Step Two - I am back on my blog, and am into two days of posting. I am glad, I feel I more often than not, need to say my peace more than be heard or have someone reply. The FB was requiring me to be dependant on feedback, I wanted it, I wanted to see someone reply to what I was saying, like I needed an audience. I don't. I started this blog for me, and it needs to continue to be for me, for T and for Big B. I am glad to step back from that... I am glad that I am now realizing that I am writing for me more than for anyone else. Now that T is starting to talk more I want to put into writing things she says, funny things she does and fun things we do together. I will, I can, I want to share these things with others but in the end, I want the memory for me.

good..
therapy over, getting up off the couch now :D

T's story of the day - this morning playing - picture this her hands and feet talk now, so hand who stands up palm out wrist down and fingers up and together, walking (hop hop hop) and says "No foot! I was playing with that first" -- Foot, who is the LEFT foot, the right is not named foot.. Left foot says "sigh, I'm sad" and hides under the blanket... Hand bunches into a fist and walks away, "I'm mad!" -- Do I get involved in these 'arguments?'
Long story short - hand goes back and plays with her baby from her doll house and POP foot comes back out from under the blanket and says "I'm back!!"
YEAH!! All is well in the world

12 steps.. Step 1

I feel I have an addiction to FB. I need to get off my kick and get back to life. I've been spending too much time reading up on some people that I don't even speak to, why is that?
I know I've been on my blog this year about, lets say close to nil. I have no readers left but that's ok. I need to do this more for me than anyone else, so if you are out there, please drop a note so I know, just in case I ramble.

I went back to bed this morning after B got up. He came up around 8 so that was nice to sleep in past 10 after my week "off" and that didn't give me any relaxation. I set my priorities around the wrong things. I did get a few things done and one friend of mine actually had the nerve to say "so did you get anything done this week?" as if she expected me not to, but then again, this is the same friend that does not get her own stuff done so I am assuming she was looking for comfort as she was heading out of town leaving her house a disaster.

I am off my game, I need to get things back in gear. So here is my start.... Expect whining at first, I need to get some things off my chest.

List 1. W /O March 14th to 21st.

1. Grounded from the Computer - so this is the only post this week, I will try to take photos of everything.

Monday -Treadmill 4:45 am - 1.5 miles or 25 min
Post Work
clean downstairs bathroom, set up potty seat and smaller potty chair
dishes, clean off table and bar
Make sure all Tupperware is up in the room (*Which is going to really suck for Thursday!!)
All Large toys in basement, smaller cubbies in T's room
After bedtime Wii 30 to 45 min.
Work on T's outfit.

Tuesday - Treadmill 4:45 am 1.5 miles or 25 min
Post Work
Ensure all from Monday is Complete.
Clean Living room. Vacuum, add hangers to closet -
Walk invites around to neighbors (Gulp, forgot!)
(Start cleaning out toys, decide what stays and what goes, then figure out what is going, where it goes. - (most of this mid work I can figure out, need to take pics of all toys.) )
Clean off Couches, fluff pillows; Wii - 30 min
Work on T's outfit.

Wednesday - No Run off day
Prep for Thursday *Tupperware party
Make Modeling Chocolate - (Please LORD don't let me mess this up and have to drive to SOCO) - Change Wii schedule to remove Thurs, change to Sunday.
Work on T's outfit.

Thursday - No Run Off day
7 PM *Tupperware Party! Post Party, enter party and close!! (Please Lord, let this party close out!!)
Bring in all Tupp- Bring up to room -
Work on T's outfit.

Friday - Drop off
Try to Run outside today (2+ Miles)
**Grocery Store. Start making (and cooking) cupcakes
Wii while cupcakes are cooking - 30 to 45 min, (post cook while cooling)
Vacuum Living room (again)
Clean Downstairs Bathroom(quick once over),
Sweep/Mop Kitchen Floor.
(*post begging mom to maybe come out to help)
make sure all junk is all off the stairs.
Hang up decorations, finish lanterns
work on outside signs
start rolling out chocolate.. Cover cupcakes, start decorating
Do dishes, eat a healthy lunch (run?) -
(Beg Elsa to come over and help)
- Pick up -
Easy dinner - rotisserie chicken and veggies, apple sauce or fruit,
Run by Blockbuster on way to Sitters.
End of night, move kitchen table near front door for gifts (and make room for kids tables) and put gift packs on table, w table cloth. Kids tables in kitchen, table cloths, snacks in cups in Tupperware containers ready to go, cups out and clean, plates, napkins,
Work on T's outfit(if not done)

Saturday - 7 am - light breakfast, fruit and yogurt, set up for good lunch -
8 am - Clean up breakfast- get T in the bath - NO TV DAY!!
9:30 am Daddy get balloons for indoor and out, hang up signs on porch (double side tape)
11:30 Lunch - turkey cubes, crackers, broc and cheese, choc milk @ 11:30 or 12, no later!!!
12 Noon - Grandparents to show for special time at 12/12:30 - Mommy shower and get ready time.
1 pm. party starts, photos as everyone walks in the door, once everyone is there, daddy to go get pics developed, kids decorate teapots, have cupcakes, open gifts, give out thank you gifts,
3 to 4 pm - send people on their way, NAP!!!!!!
5 /6 figure out an easy dinner (leftover chicken, mac n cheese w/veggies)
8 pm - everyone in bed!!

Sunday - Try to clean up everything leftover from the party if not done night before, veg day, play with new toys, figure out what old toys go into hiding or away
6 pm. Going away dinner for friend.
In bed by 10 -

*Tupperware party - Pack bag, remember, Cake Mix, Measuring cups, mixing bowl, powdered sugar (check w. hostess if I need that) - Quick Chef W blade, chip n dip bowl w lids, can opener(?),
**Grocery Store - Buttermilk, cake mixes, icing, COOKIES! PRETZELS! Juice, Soda? beer, goldfish, mini m&m's
*** $10 gift card to Walgreens for pictures - Double Side tape for decor, need removable.
**** Blockbuster - Rent Alice - ours is Ruined, BD Gift does not come out until the 30th.
***** Remind mom to bring kids table, borrow Tracey's kids table.

notes~~ Try to work on outside signs @ lunch at work at least 2 days this week.
Cardboard and Sharpie's needed.



WOW - What a list, Please let this go as planned!!

MIA -

Yup, here I am. Missing in action no more. There is very little time to sit down and blog w a soon to be two year old. I feel I am doing more laundry, cooking, cleaning, and for sure, dishes! I also find, I am interrupted much more than during year one. It was easy to have the swing, pack n play and or high chair out while completing things. Now, there is a lot of, "HELP!" "no, I ok", "I can't Get it!!", "Get me out", etc..
We have a lot of, "try it", and "lets do this", or "lets go". This is fantastic, and with her growing and learning so much it makes me realize how much we really do.

Today was my Godfathers birthday party, it was a lot of fun, I also spent 3+ hours chasing 2 year old(s) and going down the hall, back up the hall, into the play room, around the party room (school cafe) so it was fun but tiring. I had a great time, one of T's little friends was there, we'll call her S. S has been working on her potty training, had a dry pull up on all day and... and.. panties on her head, with her pigtails sticking out each side. I need her mom's ok before I post the photo I took with my cell phone. It was so cute. I remember when her mother was little, she was the same way, thought for herself, did her own thing and I never had any appreciation for it. I do now.

My cousin was also there, she makes me so sad. I miss her so much, there are times when I just want to talk to her, but I left her with the statement that if she wants to talk to me, all she has to do is call. It will be a year next week, no call yet. I was making up the party invitations and was actually in tears inviting everyone else. I really want her here.
I never in my life expected that our kids would not grow up without one another. It shocks me. With T's birthday being so close to hers and another friend of mine, they may miss her party some years but oh well. My kid does come first and as she gets older it will be less important for family parties vs friend parties that weekend so it may get better.

That's about all I've been up to. I have been wanting to post a lot recently so I may be here more (lets hope) soon.

I have decided that I am going to start working on making lists, I have found this to help me in my everyday life but I find myself lacking in the things I want and need to do. I am going to start my lists up to help me keep up with myself.

Can't think of anything else right now. So see you soon!