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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Tid's and Bit's -- just a quick update from here

We are heading off to Ohi-(o) next month, our first family vacation. I am worried, not about the trip, or even the cost of gas (in no way am I looking forward to that either) but about taking a 15/16 month old out of her routine and into a 7+ hour drive for a weekend. I am praying all goes well, sending off positive energy out to the universe and offering up sacrifices of toys to the toddler gods to get us there and back with the least amount of fits. We've borrowed a travel DVD player, was gifted two Video Now Jr's, with multiple dvd's to go with it (thankfully, because they don't sell them anymore) and I've purchased enough Juicy Juice to, to, to.. whatever you do with fruit juice... I expect we are going to Bob Evans for lunch, i.e. $2.50 kids meals that will feed 3 meals or more.

In other news,
I want to make this blanket anyone have any patterns for baby doll clothes? I need to start making some, ours is naked, and we've started the taking off our clothes phase so this may be a good time.

Meds are going well. I like the new stuff, I'll have more of an update on that soon, I was giving myself time to make sure I am on the right track and see how things are going. (p.s. lost almost 10 lbs now)
Reading - Holly's Inbox, it's really funny, really easy read. I am going to need something else for the Drive to Ohio... suggestions?
Watching - Trueblood, was going to start the books but there are FOURTY EIGHT reserves @ the library, anyone who knows me, knows,,, I have ,, ahem, (constant late charges) always donated to the Library.
Eating - tons of fruit, I just found a great little market down the street, open on saturdays and now they have a man that brings in home ground full grain bread that he makes himself, the neighbors got some last weekend and loved it. I am going to get some sometime soon.

Miss T-
Doing great, she's walking, getting a bit of an attitude, FREAKING out about things not going her way, does this mean she's spoiled? I don't want a spoiled kid, but at the same time, I don't want her to think that she can't ask for help, if this is her way of asking until she can say the words. She's also saying more - Ca' = ball, DA - meaning anything from COME HERE PLEASE to where is my other person that lives here, my husband of course states "it ALWAYS means DADDY" - we've been getting a lot more kisses, who am I to argue, I love it, I hate that it will stop. ever...

fine, we went to Dave Matthews, it was great. It was our first actual DATE date from the time we had Miss T.

Work is work... still there, thankfully... My week off didn't feel like time off. I didn't get anything done, I think I may have ADD, I lose myself in whatever is in front of me.

that's about it for now, I feel I've lost my readers, but if your still here, shout a bit. ok? thanks

Friday, June 12, 2009

Sign up - it's awesome!

I signed up for the juicy juice bunch, it's all partents and people getting together to talk about how to eat healthy, (drink their jucie, which we love no sugar added) and fun things for kids.
I just finished this article called Healthy Eating, Happy Kids and thought I would share. check it out, sign up!! If you want to give me credit for you signing up, my user name is ToodleDoos (like the etsy business)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Here there and everywhere... (part One)

I am trying to catch up on everything, laundry, dishes, housework, blogging, time with Miss T and that is leaving little time for me.  This gives me the big option to somehow turn into a big mushy pile of crap.  I actually laid on my bed last night watching the Netflix version of Nurse Jackie and Weeds Season 5.  Don't get me wrong, they were GREAT. I miss watching TV, anything without something blue dancing in the screen is great for me!
For those of you asking about updates on my medication issues. I am off the medication fully, the one that was really bad.  I did start a new medication because, well, there is no reason to be in the checkout at the store.  I mean Brittney has a lot going on but really...
So, long story short, I am on new meds, on a diet/ weight loss change in my life, but I feel better. I feel more.  I can't believe the changes, just from last year until now. 
Recap -
  •  I have gone back to work, after having major surgery, a baby, and postpartum to gaining __ weight, feeling lethargic, not wanting to do anything but sleep, because that is the LAST thing I am (was then) getting.  Up every 2 hours, move to 3, then to 4. Never longer than a 6 hour stretch, up, over and over and over. 
  •  I miss sleep, I love it, I wish I could have more of it. Now the Migraines start because I am not getting sleep, and the depression, and the sugar. It's hard, I can't function, up at 4 am, to feed, by the time we are done it's time to get in the shower for work, then work, go up, pump, come back down, try to get my brain in that place to be productive and know things that used to just come to me.
  • Time to eat lunch, I am so tired, I just buy lunch at work, of course it's grease and junk because that's about all they have. 
  • Still tired, I need soda, sugar something to wake me up.
  • Coffee is my friend, I wish I could have more but it makes my milk go down.  the only thing working for me now is nursing, I seem to be pretty good at it. 
  •  Taking meds to help the crying, I seem to cry all the time, I guess this is pp.  
  • Still working, all the same, I have no energy nothings changing.
  • Still Crying.
  • They upped my meds, I don't know if it's really helping, I feel more numb than anything else.
  • I am still not getting a lot of sleep, I've moved the monitor so I can't see the light anymore, just hear the sound. She wakes up a lot, she's been so much better about self soothing, it's not helping me sleep.  Once I am up, I am up.  I wish I were this awake during the day.
  • It's Christmas, I can't deal with people. Thanksgiving was bad enough, I feel horrible, like a big fat pig. I can't believe I got my period, I can't believe I am gaining weight! I don't even care. ugg.. 
  • My Birthday, I hate this day, I am stopping the meds today, Happy Birthday, this is the best gift to me!
  • OMG, I am dizzy, I am sick to my stomach, why am I not losing weight? why don't I feel better?
  • It's the one year old birthday party. Things went great. I only threw up once today.  I think that's a sad way to know I am feeling better. This med sucks! they really need to rethink it.  I guess I just don't understand all of the nasty that comes with it. safe in milk I guess that's what they look for.  I am glad I nursed until now,  We are weaning now, should only be another few weeks and we will be all done. I am sad thinking about that. 
  • One month after being off those meds and I still feel like shit! WTH!
  • Easter, I don't want to deal... I want to stay home!
  • Saw new doc, he said work thru it. 
  •  Two months after being off these meds and its not any better. Called and called and called my ob. no luck . going to see a new primary next week. Please God! Help me! I can't live like this!
  • My allergist gave me some more Benadryl to help with the dizzy spells. Said he'd call me in some other stuff if I need it.
  • the new doc won't give me anything to help, I called the office they ran more tests and nothing. work thru it
  • It's MAY! May and I am finally feeling better... I think, I am physically feeling better that is. 
  • I can think again, not as well as before, but I can at least think. I look like shit, and I know this in my head, but I can't seem to care.. What is going on with me?
  • Fibber.. I cried today on the phone with my tech.     This is not something that should happen. I am calling the doctor again.
  • Called Primary, he thinks I should "stick it out" - he said he'd schedule me with a whack job consult if I am not better by mid summer.  Ok, this is a jackass thing to say.  Not really happy about that. This Dr may be short-lived.
  • Still crying, this is not right.  Called ob. Putting me on new med.  My choice med.  I feel a little better just knowing that. Is this physiological?
  • Started on meds... Feeling better.. a little more day by day.. Hmm.. Good
  • I feel better and better day by day, I've started walking at work.
  • We took a walk today around the block. T loves the stroller. We may do this a lot this summer.. good, I need it
  • Sharing meals with T, nice, easy and small.  I feel better.
  • Grocery store, almost cried in the checkout.. Cried at home, no reason, making dinner. No period yet? Calling OB. My appt is in 3 weeks Maybe I need a higher dose? Should I wait?
  • Higher dose per Dr. Ok, I am ok with that. I can deal. I can handle it.  All is well, this is just for now, just to help.  I need to look up side effects.. I am not really worried.
  • Looked in the mirror this am. UGG I am a fat pig.  Gross, getting on the treadmill tonight, starting my ww again, I've got to get this under control.
  • Went to a birthday party today.  Ya, not only am I a fat pig but it seems everyone there thought so too and felt the need to discuss it.  fuk, I hate this.
  • Lost 3 lbs. I feel better. not a lot better but we are getting there, my goal now is pre preg weight. we will work from there after that.. get there first. get there first.

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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Test number 2.. trying out this e-mail thing again,

I've got to get the hang of this somehow!

Monday, June 1, 2009

We swam and swam and swam!

Originally uploaded by Hippiefamily
We broke out the kiddie pool yesterday so Miss T could take a dip. She's ok in the bath but likes to let the water out more than anything else so I was wondering how she would take to the pool. Holey cow! we were outside from 3 to 4:30. She walked around in the water first, then she played with her fisher price animals that are like nesting dolls, then she started going underwater, by herself! I was shocked, amazed and glad she's not afraid of water. She was drinking the water as much as she could and was dipping her face in too. It was so funny. she's getting too big too fast.