So, I have not really discussed my friend Melissa or what's been going on with her... It's been rough.
Right before our birthday (same day) she was having (additional) trouble seeing and ended up on steroids, having a surgery, having a second surgery and now having a third this past Friday. Her eye has been hurting so bad she's not even opening it right now and she went to the Dr Tuesday and they said the worst. Her retina re-detached again this week in the same place it did last time. This is bad, this is also her only eye left and if it goes it's over, it was her last chance. This makes surgery number 16 on this eye and before she lost the other there were 14 on that one.
In every other realm of my life this story is about her and her needs, wants and issues but right now I am sad and need to say that of most of my life this wonderful person has been my friend no matter what. I am sad, I am sad that her son's lost their father and they will never know him but even more I am sad that she will never SEE her boys get married, she will never SEE them graduate any grade higher than where they are now. I am glad I got Taryn down there early on so they could hang out. I am sad, I am so so sad and I am feeling selfish that its my pain that I am feeling, not just hers. I am sad for her and about her and with her about this whole thing and it's so unfair.
I am trying so hard to believe that there is a reason for this and God has some master plan to get us ALL over this hump. It's just not fair, she's never been able to drive a car, look thru a telescope, watch her kid run all the bases at a baseball game, wrestle, dive and or jump off a diving board and now this... She had all the lights on at her house on a super sunny day when T and I stopped by, because it gave her comfort that she could still see the light when she looked up. That's not right... I just don't get it.. Uggg...
So, in honor of her, I will look at everything today with detail... I will make sure to pay more attention to ants and bugs, lights and colors, shapes and sizes. I will watch her kids run and play and wrestle, and help her figure out how to cook again, and learn to type again in Braille. Braille was not easy when we took it in high school but machines are different now than they were then. I am working and on the State 1 list for the blind and there is some really interesting information, support and we will make it.
ugggggggg... it's just a sad day here today...
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