Max, Ruby, Gabba, Beyu, and who knows what else.

All of a sudden the words are just SPILLING out of T's mouth. In the past week, she called Grandma "Geemauw", shes singing the theme songs to all her shows, including Max and Ruby, (Ruby and Max), Beyu's Ceyu's (Blue's Clues), singing when I sing Twinkle Twinkle, she'll sing Wiggle Wiggle (skipping little star) and then goes right into "I know what you are". She's cocky like that apparently.

We are getting a lot of "I know!" Which I can only assume is coming from one of the kids at the sitter because it's doubtful that its coming from Bob or I. A lot of breakdowns and "Oh NO!!" which just makes it insane to be mad sometimes when you know she's just so upset about it not working her way, then there are the beginning's of time outs for the throwing of things when she's beyond the frustration point.

There is so much more new and good that I can't believe it. She's got a firm grasp on when and what No is and even tends to tell on herself when she knows she doing something wrong and while doing it will say "NO!" "ohhhh, NO!" "No, No"... so this is good all in all.

Who needs it...

Everyone is going low carb these days, who needs it right? I agree but I am weak, and I need to be stronger but it's just so easy. It's so easy to have to run to work, run to the sitter, run home, make dinner have time for family, bath, bed and me?
Who am I kidding. By the time I get the baby to bed at night I am exhausted.. so bad that I end up trying to figure out 1 thing to do a night so I don't get backed up over the weekends. I then overload myself and end up with a migraine and can't seem to function for a day (or so).
This weekend is going to be rough but thankfully long. We have a birthday party on Saturday afternoon which requires a hell of a drive! Daddy is going out so we are leaving him out by the birthday party and driving home alone, to then do dinner, bath and bed.. Hoping not to follow by exhaustion. I want to get up Saturday morning and go join the gym to join and work out. It's January and that makes me leery of signing up now, I hate crowds but need to get on a schedule. Once I start, things will get easier! right? sigh.......
So, back to the carbs, I am trying to beat it again, it's just those first two weeks that kick my butt. This is the "you can't have anything but,.... nope, you can't have anything" so it's the one that kills me. I try to knock out coffee because the coffee at work really sucks and the S place is over rated and expensive. I can make it @ home but we have one of those fancy coffee makers that grinds the beans, great if you are home, watching the sun rise and enjoying being at home. If not, you are making coffee, running late, getting dressed, fixing hair (2 peoples) and then trying to get dressed (morning workouts are now a joke) and leaving so you can get to work by --- um SEVEN AM - that's after a 45 min to hour drive.. Yes, leaving @ six am! (no invites required, yes this is my pitty party)
So, long story short, I am South Beaching it, again. . . . and again.. .. ... and so on. Post two to three week starting point, once I am feeling better, I'll start back up with brown rice and sweet potatoes and go from there, possible brown bread on rare occasion. Lots of veggies, and bringing back apples. they are my favorite evening snack. Alton Brown is talking me into smoothies for Breakfast but I've been having really good luck with Egg whites these days, I think I am going to start getting some of those frozen green giant veggie mixes to make to go with them. I had a turkey sandwich from the gas station today, half for breakfast, half for lunch, it was fantastic. YUM! I didn't eat much else and was starving by the time I should eat tonight and ate everything not biting me first! I also need to work on a good afternoon snack, I like the nut mixes or packs but it's just not enough, I hate celery so that's just not going to happen, I like the cottage cheese but that's something I need cold and with either sweetener or fruit to eat. Non Carb, easy to eat afternoon snack? Peanut Butter, I know the SB does not strongly support it but I have a nice size spoon full, no sugar added Skippy natural, yum! My fav! I would have hummus but it's so gross. Pickles? Ya, gross too!
Either or, that is my plan. More tuna, more chicken (canned, frozen and grilled), salmon, and fresh/frozen veggies.
speaking of healthy..... more sleep..... it's after 10 so I am getting done here and going to bed.....



Can someone remind me I need freezer bags? Thanks, we've been out for weeks!

Jan 3rd... Something New....

This is the new year. I've reset my goals on 43 Things and I am ready to go! Reminders all the time (which may start to annoy me but that's kind of what I need!) so I am going to be all set.
Today, I made dinner. I mean like a real dinner, not just frozen pizza or pre-made mix together food. Don't get me wrong, this is not a full roast beef dinner, I just made Chicken and rice. BUT, this is the first time I've ever made Chicken and rice. Which may be a shock with all my mad cooking skills. (Ok, I admit, I have none) I can bake with the best of them but when it comes to cooking I am not in my A game. Part of what I am doing for 2010 is cooking dinner from scratch more.
Tomorrow is my first day back at work after what feels like a huge vacation. Part of me is ready, part of me is not. This is going to be a long week. More updates to come about that but lets start things slow... 5 am is going to be here too soon!

It's not over till it's over!.. Wait, it's over.

It is the end of 2009... My Year in Review includes things that happened, along with my thoughts and feeling on those things that happened.

Jan -

• Set up a Twitter account... Later found out Twitter has a lot of porn on it, their spamming is horrid and I had to kill off my account. Bad Twitter!
• Made my first sale(s) on e-bay, not bad, made some money.
• Set Up a 43 Things account. Still getting reminders on thinks I've yet to do.
• The annoyance of the new guy at work continues. He's a horrible person and that's that.
• Added my Maiden name to Facebook and exploded with my past. Crazy, but I love it!

Feb -

• Realized my baby was still a baby, still wanting to be held and cuddled.. She's so over that.
• making blankets for charity - I made one :( **Need to add something to my list for 2010*
• Starting the Cupcake war for T's birthday. The Cupcakes won! * Starting on the big BD Bash for this year already!
• I broke my Arm... Oh my sewing machine embroidery arm plastic busted, and I was so upset, easy fix when I expected it to be harder.. Thank God for the store I bought it from!
• Happy Birthday to me! Melissa, and everyone else in Feb.

March

• Blogger changes set me back
• My Baby had a birthday
• Started being removed from Meds and had HORRIBLE side effects that lasted 2 months!
• Tried to stand up for stay at home moms and was stomped on.
• I made my first basket. very cute, very fun I should do another of those.

April -

• Grannie BeeBee passes. Very sad, we miss her so.
• In a bad place, depressed, sick, sad, sick, having a hard time coming off the meds, still.
• Found out I could blog from my phone, Found out blogging from my Phone is a HUGE pain in the ass
• Trying to remove the word "gay" from my vocab, Still working on that one.

May

• Went thru my 3rd NV - Thanks Verizon. - The new phone I have is better anyway
• I still have the Patterns from the garage sale from last year *2010 Resolve they go!**
• I learned how to e-mail my blog updates. V- Cool. I need to do this more so I do update my blog!! **2010 Resolve **
• Lots of tooth work.
• Added a Random Fact to my blog. I like that **2010 Resolve to add more**

June

• Had tons of fun swimming, ok I was sitting with my feet in the water but T was swimming and going under water.
• A recap on PPD.
• Signed up to be a Juicy Juice Mom. I still love it and get free stuff all the time!!
• Started new meds to get back on track from the horrible nasty ones to ween.
• Was not invited to a birthday party - Very sad...

July

• We went on Vacation to Ohio- not blogged.. No Blog entry in July -- BAD!!
• Was not invited to second child birthday party - very upset.

August

• Only one Blog entry - BAD!
• I did a research study at the YMCA. Loved it.
• Started Selling Tupperware.
• Started Braille

September

• Rocked the Tupperware, first month is always exciting, I got tons of free stuff. Still do.

October

• Got some Awesome things from the EOY city garage sale (ADDICT)
• Made a colored rice project, didn't go over as well as plain rice all over my floor!
• Started my want list for Christmas Projects. **2010 Resolve Move that to JUNE!**
• Sick of Tupperware - but still selling it.. This year may be short lived w the Tup
• Got Direct TV

November

• I got nada, we had Thanksgiving
• Big Family changes - non bloggable
• Did I mention Big Family Changes?

December

• The year in review.. What a year. it's been insane
• I want to work on Blogging more
• Working on FB less. It's an addiction I tell ya!

Good things -

• Family changes - great things, I didn't realize how good until it was done.
• Watching T get bigger, do more and be so cute and sweet and use good manors
• Donated time to NIC U Letters for Santa
• Lovable Babies born to friends

Not so Good things -

• Lost people that I loved, both in death and from issues. - I am sadly now learning that some people value themselves as something they are not, and expect others to take on the whole of a relationship. I missed out on seeing people I love growing up because people are bitter. It's very sad.
• Had a horrible issue with medication and caused me to rethink a lot of what I ask my Dr.
• Learning what it's like to have a sick child, not mind but my best friends. Very sad. Very hard.

I learned that now if people choose not to love me back I need to let them go, it's not me, it's them.

I learned that family is more important than expected, takes on so much more than I realized.

I learned that if I want time, I need to make that time. That includes, exercise, cooking, family, and ME time.. **2010 Resolve - Work on Me time**

Christmas Spirit.????????

It's been a busy month, so busy that my brain is scrambled and I've had too much going on to think enough to write.
My best friend, the one that's been thru too much, so much that geez, she does not need nore diserve anymore but her poor baby was born, with things wrong. No baby should be born with things wrong, let alone possibly needing a new heart at 3 months old. That's right, 3 months.
My heart aches so bad, I can't write, I can't find my words anymore. I hate that I can't do anything, fix something, or do something to help. Kills me.
On top of all the rest..
this is all I have right now.

Holey Cow, It's December!

Wow, how did a whole month sneak by? I don't get it, as soon as I feel like I am on track and catching up, BAM it's a whole new month. I started getting T all set up in a new size (of course) and mid way thru she grew out of the 18 month (Finally) and is now partially going into 24 months, do I suck it up and just get rid of all of the 18 month and move into clothes that are too big? Naa.. that would make my life too easy. We are moving out of the things I know she's grown out of and have the empty diaper box behind the chair for anything that comes out of the closet that wont/shouldn't go back in.
Is there an easier way? I would love to know!

We had thanksgiving at my mothers, with a small trip to the inlaws for the check in. Long story short, there's so much going on that I can't talk about in my blog that imagine this is at least another two pages... I know you get it.

I am prepping for Christmas now, we are going to get our tree next weekend, I wonder to myself which is better, to have a real tree that dies by January and we have to recycle or something with that one, or go fake and add to the addition of plastic? Sigh... we go real every year, we end up mulching with the needles and branches and the stem? stalk? of the tree(s) are in our garage and I am not sure what that man is planning for them, but it does make me feel less bad that we are working with them.

The tupperware has helped with presents, I am going to have a last cash and carry party before the end of the year, it was going to be this next weekend but that's gone a bust becuase my shippment is late. (sigh) But that is A-ok, we'll go for the weekend after and do just as well.

I've lost another reader... hmm, oh well, I have to say I've not been working hard enough at writing to keep them. Sad none the less but fairwell... I did start this blog for me and want to make sure I continue it that way. I do have plans for 2010 and it's shockingly vain. 2010 is the year of working on me. Scarry, not that my family suffers but I've got the mind set of if I can't take care of me, how can I take care of them as needed. (Airplane rules apply)

So here's my change for 2010 resolutions
1. Make myself healthy, this means weight control, exercise and mentaly.
2. (also known as 1A.) Work on eating better, real food, less crap, and a minimal amount of fast food, I don't want to say none becuase that's just waiting to ruin that.
3. (also known as 1B.) Exercise, more regularly, more activity, more for me, including the time to do it. This does not restrict Wii, treadmills, going for early evening walks, working out at lunch, etc.
4. (also known as 1C.) Making time for me. I want to have a me night at least every other week, on a week night, work later, possibly work out after work, grocery shopping? any other items that I need to get done. This also makes daddy/daughter time.
5. Sew more, work on finishing projects that I have going on without starting new.
6. Clean more effectivly, I am thinking I may take an organizing class at the local college for new ideas on what to do better.
7. ............pending..........
8. .............pending..........
9. .............pending..........
10. ...........pending..........

That's as far as I've gotten so far. I have a few things I am sure I will come up with before the end of the year.

That's all I've got for now.

I love what Turkey Cookies is doing... right now...

Right Now, I am:

watching... an amazing amount of water, in the fall, with leaves everywhere, on the trees and the ground spreading it's rainbow of colors before the winter.

smelling... apples, ready for baking, cakes and candies ready for Halloween and cookies this weekend, ready to travel.

reading... trying to read Firefly lane, knowing it is sad and teary, I cannot bring myself to keep going.

enjoying... my hard work with making a Halloween costume!!

listening... more NPR than normal

knitting... nope, I want to pick it back up for winter

drinking... pumpkin lattes

wanting... make a few handmade holiday gifts

embracing... the love of my family in these rough times

I never promised you a rose garden...

I beg your pardon????? I understand full use of kleenex, of needing them of using them. On the other hand, I don't claim to be green. I try, I fail, I try again but I don't put it on my blog as my namesake as my effort.... this really ticks me off, I liked Betz White, I feel as if she's sold out... Kleenex?? Really???

Upside-Down Pear Gingerbread Recipe

Upside-Down Pear Gingerbread Recipe

This is a recipe I found on the parents site, it sounds so good and wintery and perfect for Thanksgiving/Christmasy!

Homemade Candy Corn

Homemade Candy Corn

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